There are a few different concepts I have been pondering, as of late. 
This first concept is the idea that there is a season for everything.  The specific passage I am referring to is found in Ecclesiastes 3:1-8. American Standard Version (ASV):  

3 “For everything there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; a time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; a time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away; a time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.”

What does this passage even mean?  I am left to wonder at these words.  How can there be a time for everything?  Can such a thing be ordained/arranged from divinity?  Do we as gods choose when these times are, before we come into these mortal frames?  So many questions, I can only ponder their meanings.  When you feel as strongly as I do, you tend to feel like maybe the weeping will never end, and maybe the sorrow is a mark that forever defines your soul.  But what if there is hope that it will cease?  What if I can still hope for a season of joy and laughter yet to come?  What if everything is set aside and accounted for?  What do we create and what do we just ‘fall into’?  If we accept that we are all co-creators of our reality in this universe, then how do we align ourselves with the seasons and times we set out to experience?  I admit, I have more questions than I have answers, yet my probing mind will not stop being curious.  And I do pray, that there will be a time for me to remember and understand every season my soul goes through. 

The second concept I have been pondering is the Serenity Prayer written by Reinhold Neibuhr (1892-1971).

God grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change;
Courage to change the things I can;
And wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
As it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
If I surrender to His Will;
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life
And supremely happy with Him
Forever and ever in the next.

This prayer has always struck me to my core.  It’s applicability is striking to anyone dealing with an addiction of any kind, especially emotionally.  Does anyone else find relationships the hardest to understand and let go of?  I ponder this prayer in my daily dealings with other people.  I am not responsible for the actions or reactions of others.  I can only control that which I think, say and do.  This prayer is so simple….serenity.  But what exactly is serenity?  According to the google dictionary it is: “the state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled.”  Isn’t that all are prayers?  Don’t we all seek to be at peace with others and with ourselves?  Yet how challenging is it to attain this true serenity? 

What strikes me about both of these passages is the common theme:  surrender and trust.  In everything, there is a perfect order and time.  In what is not seen or understood, there is something just beyond the veil, just beyond that which can be seen or conceived with limited human eyes.  It begs to confer that the spirit sees all and if you could just connect with the divinity inside of you, you would be at peace and know that everything, everything will and is working in perfect order.  It doesn’t come by striving or struggling, though we all know the struggle, but in surrender and trust in something/someone greater than you and I.  There is an understanding that everything has a season and nothing is out of place.  One must surrender to this understanding and acknowledge that though it is dark and all feels lost, it is just a season.  The light is at the end of this dark, long tunnel.  Something has to break.  Something will breakthrough.  The storms in your life will not last forever.  They are just a season for you.  They are just a time where you have to learn to let go of all you know, all you’ve known and trust in a power greater than yourself, within yourself, and surrender to the higher power of not mine, but Thy will be done.  Amen.